I Try So Hard

I've been trying so hard
To not fall apart
And it's harder to do it
When you don't have a heart

One thousand tears fall
But are never seen
I need someone to help me
To understand what I mean

'Cause it's hard, complicated
It hurts,
This world I created

I try so hard to hide
I'm afraid I won't survive
I try so hard not to show
This agony that haunts my soul
Save me, break me, tear me apart
Just end this pain I feel from the start

I'm sick of being away
Sick of this life that to me is bound
Sick of disappointing others
Sick of being forbidden to make a sound

I can take no more
I want everything to stop
I want to be who I was
Although I already forgot

'Cause it hurts, it's killing me
I want to end this
So my soul can be free

I try so hard to fake
This feeling I learned to create
I try so hard to be real
No one realizes how I really feel
Forgive me, cry for me, rip me apart

End this nightmare I have from the start

PhillGothDragon